JulyPoWriMo 7

Watching sci-fi on the television 
reminds me of those months I was living
inside my own vision or delusion
whichever came first (often it was both)
of being projected into the past
or into the dark future on spaceships
where all life on earth was being erased
as part of some plan that I helped create
with idle thoughts someone read in my head
that despite my protests I could not stop
as images flickered on silver screens
entire books I would quote verbatim
static manic panic insists is truth
nightmares continue without need for proof